Flash Fiction / Letter
TW: Suicide
Dear August,
Regardless of what you believe about greetings in the start of a letter, I genuinely hope that this letter finds you in good health.
You’re right. I am not exactly doing well. I am writing this letter to thank you for everything you’ve done till now. Having you around brings a little joy to my otherwise numb soul. Your company is something I’ll cherish for whatever life I’ve left.
The letter you sent, though it was not your usual self, a little harsh, I might say. But, it had that warmth and care which I’m not sure I’ve ever felt before. Till this date, all the affirmations and consolations you gave, I’ll be very honest, I took them all in like a blackhole. They didn’t change anything, maybe, died somewhere inside me. But this letter came in like an epiphany. Something I had always known but still couldn’t make sense of, until I read your words.
I had been tiring myself, trying to be that one girl whom everyone loves. I’ve become a people pleaser. And yet, it seems to me that nobody acknowledges me. I’ve masked myself behind a hundred fake personas, did everything to the liking of whoever was watching me but to no avail. Everyone thinks that I’m a lost cause, a disappointment and I do too. You say you’ve seen a glowing potential inside me? No. It is all dark and empty in here, it always has been. And trust me, you were never a bad friend, don’t blame yourself for my shortcomings.
I am sorry I could never keep up with your words, I was not even worth wasting your time on. Nothing ever affected me. I know how frustrating this must be for you. I’m sure you’re annoyed with me.
But, I will no longer be a pain. Your letter struck me with something I always needed. A realisation that I have to stop being someone I’m not. And behind all these facades, no soul exists, it is completely hollow. Yes, that is the real me. And thus, I’ll finally embrace my fate.
Farewell.
P.S. Don’t write to this address again, nobody might be there to receive your letters.
This second letter is written by my friend @Tanshi Singh